This is a hard post to write, but...it has to be done.
Well, if you have ever seen my ticker, you would have seen that I had lost 4.6 pounds on this journey. Now you see that it is 0 pounds lost. I thought I would be honest with myself and my fellow weightloss bloggers friends and say that have gained that weight back. I have note been keeping track of my food intake at all and have given into the fast food, sweets, and sodium. I feel so yucky right now. My body feels physically ill due to all of the crap that I have been shoveling into my body.
I feel horrible because I used to have such great posts on here, but if you have been a follower for long, you know that they haven't been the best lately. Sorry about that. I feel like I am letting myself and my family down. When I started this journey I was all into it and excited, but the stresses of life happened and now I am back to square one.
I say almost because this fall back is not like the others. If this had happened two months ago, I would still be in a funk. I am not. I am more motivated to get back on track. I have a 5k race on Saturday to get ready for! I also have lost 2 pant sizes! I gave away my size 14's and my 12's have holes in them, so I can't just stop now! I would have nothing to wear! LOL
So, with the truth out there, I feel better. I don't feel like I have to lie to you guys. You are so awesome! I hope I can live up to what I want to be. I know I can live up to what I want to be.
April Goals: 1. To get back on track food wise. 2. To get back on track exercise wise 3. Lose back my weight gain 4. Lose 6 more inches overall
That feels much better. I am ready to re-start my journey yet again.
Confession: I ate my way back to being 189 pounds.
Cheer: I got up early this morning and did a workout video called Bollywood Dance. I know this is my go-to workout because it always gets me happy about working out in the mornings. I also fessed up to something that has been weighing on my chest for about two weeks now. Something I wouldn't have done before.
Dessert at Iridescence
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