This is a hard post to write, but...it has to be done.
Well, if you have ever seen my ticker, you would have seen that I had lost 4.6 pounds on this journey. Now you see that it is 0 pounds lost. I thought I would be honest with myself and my fellow weightloss bloggers friends and say that have gained that weight back. I have note been keeping track of my food intake at all and have given into the fast food, sweets, and sodium. I feel so yucky right now. My body feels physically ill due to all of the crap that I have been shoveling into my body.
I feel horrible because I used to have such great posts on here, but if you have been a follower for long, you know that they haven't been the best lately. Sorry about that. I feel like I am letting myself and my family down. When I started this journey I was all into it and excited, but the stresses of life happened and now I am back to square one.
Almost.
I say almost because this fall back is not like the others. If this had happened two months ago, I would still be in a funk. I am not. I am more motivated to get back on track. I have a 5k race on Saturday to get ready for! I also have lost 2 pant sizes! I gave away my size 14's and my 12's have holes in them, so I can't just stop now! I would have nothing to wear! LOL
So, with the truth out there, I feel better. I don't feel like I have to lie to you guys. You are so awesome! I hope I can live up to what I want to be. I know I can live up to what I want to be.
April Goals: 1. To get back on track food wise. 2. To get back on track exercise wise 3. Lose back my weight gain 4. Lose 6 more inches overall
That feels much better. I am ready to re-start my journey yet again.
Confession: I ate my way back to being 189 pounds.
Cheer: I got up early this morning and did a workout video called Bollywood Dance. I know this is my go-to workout because it always gets me happy about working out in the mornings. I also fessed up to something that has been weighing on my chest for about two weeks now. Something I wouldn't have done before.
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It sounds like everyone slipped up the past few weeks. I went back to a WW meeting, and the scale showed a gain as well. Back to almost my starting weight. Just get back on track, beat that 5K and you will do awesome!
ReplyDeleteBig hugs! A few months after I started my blog, I had actually GAINED 20 pounds. Keep truckin', girl! You can and will do this :)
ReplyDeleteIf you've gained weight and lost inches, while running a bunch of races, are you sure you aren't just losing fat and gaining muscle?
ReplyDeleteYAYAYAYAYA I am so glad your back on track! Good luck for your run coming up!
ReplyDeleteLaura, at least you realize whats going on. BUt you are working out more, so forget about the scale. Only weigh like once a month.... if you lose 15 inches and only 1 pound, id take the 15 inches anyday. Remember that muscle weighs more than fat, and our bodies are getting different as we get older(isnt that a scarry sentence) so if you meausre yourself and lose another 1.5 inches, but lost no wiehgt, then thats still a "cheer". at least in my opinion. Love you and keep going! you have a ton of people beSIDE you!
ReplyDeleteSometimes it happens and we just need to pick ourselves up! I applaude you cause its a pain to start over, but persistance will get you to your goal not perfection.
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