Magazine week!!

If you had told me a last year that I would be excited to receive fitness magazines in the mail...I would have laughed at you. But it's true!!

The first week of each month is magazine week. I had signed up for two magazines over the summer and I just LOVE getting them in the mail!! I subscribed to Health and Self magazine. I read them cover to cover and I really have a great time sitting on the couch after the boys have gone to bed.

If you don't have a magazine subscription to a healthy magazine, I suggest you get one. It keeps me focused or helps me get through a tough spot.

Yeah for magazine week!!

Confession: I had a margarita at dinner tonight. I keep trying to prepare for WW next week, but boy was today tiring!!

Cheer: I started talking to some women about keeping healthy on WW. I am the one who opened up the convo!!

Looking Forward

I am looking forwad to going to WW next week. I am trying to not think of this week as an "eat everything in sight before I am put on a strict eating plan" week.

I'm happy to say that I have been cooking at home this week. Something that hasn't happened in awhile. I think my hubby has been happy with it too. I enjoy looking for deals and shopping at the store. My hubby has been watching the boys for me, so I see shopping for groceries as a time to relax and enjoy time for myself.

Last weeks bill was only $40 and that was including diapers. How did I get this so cheaply? I found the Kraft Food & Family website that has this feature called 5 meals in a bag. I got everything that they said to get and it as so cheap!! It even includes the nutritional info as well!! My hubby is happy about the price and I am starting to enjoy cooking at home again. The one thing that has kept me happy about cooking is that I have been cleaning up as soon as we are done eating. When the kitchen is clean, I want to cook!!

Confession: Still need to kick the coke habit before next week!! And the sugar one too!! LOL

Cheer: I am doing so well about not eating out!!

WW Decision

The decision to close out my YMCA gym membership and change it to a Weight Watchers membership has been the topic of discussion around the house this week. I LOVE going to the gym, but my youngest son does not like it. He cries the whole time and they end up having to come and get me, thus cutting my workout short.

Because of this, I have decided to cancel my membership and wait until he is a little older to start it back up again. He is 15 months and I feel like I should wait until he is two or three years old before I go back. It was costing me 80 bucks a month and I was only going a few times a month.

I talked to my husband about maybe switching it over to WW and it would be cheaper. I told him I can't do this alone. He agreed and so starting the first week of November, I will be going to WW on Wednesday nights at 6:30pm. It is at a WW clinic, one I went to a few years ago, and I really like the leader that is there. She is sooo super nice.

So, I will update you throughout the week and let you know how I am doing. I'm not going to wait to start WW to start eating healthy. I want to get this party started!! LOL

Confession: I ate too much of my mommy's cake this afternoon.

Cheer: I didn't just quit the gym and do nothing about it. I made a second plan of action instead of giving up!!

Slow and Steady

Thanks for the encouragment guys!! I really needed it and I knew my blogger family would be there to help me pick up the pieces.

I haven't gotten up early this week to workout. I have been really watching what I eat though. I have been bringing my lunch to work instead of eating snack bar or going out. We have also been eating in the house at night too. It feels so nice to sit at my own home and eat with no other distractions. It has been awhile.

I am really excited because tomorrow my friend Allison and her family (new baby!!) are coming over for dinner. I am going to serve something healthy and I am really happy to see her. I haven't seen her in a few months!! I hope that we could maybe make this a weekly ritual. I think it would both help us out. We used to go eat out every week with each other, but financialy and it not being so healthy, has taken a toll on us both. I hope that we can get healthy with each other. I hope to be friends with her for a long time and I want us both to be around for awhile.

Confession: I was too tired to cook dinner tonight.

Cheer: I only had one Diet Coke today!! Better than the three or four I was having a few days ago!!

Biggest Loser

So, I am sitting here watching The Biggest Loser (my fav show) and I am just in tears....

I am usually crying about the people on the show, but tonight I am crying for myself. I have fallen off the wagon and have not had any motivation to get up at 5am and workout. I havent been to the gym in a few weeks and I remember how much fun I had while there.

I need to get my butt up and do this!!!

What have you done today to make yourself proud??

I'm back guys for good!!!!!!!!!!

Stress

Last Weeks Weight: 189
This Weeks Weight: 189.5

Stress is my number one trigger. I am the kind of person where when I go to bed at night it takes a good 30 minutes formy brain to shut off. I think about things from the day, usually the bad things, and then think about all ofthe crazy things I have to do in the week, and sometimes the month.

Some of my stresses include, but are not limited to: Husband drama, children drama, work drama, homework drama, bills drama, food drama, and the fear of failure. That's a lot going on in my head and it happens all day long.

So what do I do to cope with the stress? I eat sugar. I go to the store and buy a big bag of chocolate, not the individual size at the cashier, the enough for five people bag of chocolate. Then I lay in my bed and proceed to eat the whole bag. Of course my children are taking a nap so I don't have to share any of it with them. Or I hide it in my desk at work and eat it in between classes.

Last night my husband and I got into a class at argument when he tried to be intimate with me and I pushed him away. The stress I have had these past few months have just shut me down in that department. How can I be intimate with my partner if I don't feel good about myself? He gotupset with me andI just had to tell him everything that was bothering me. In the end, after about an hour or two of talking, we came to the conculsion that we both need to help each other out at home.

One thing I did realize, is that one way that I can positively get rid of stress is go to the gym. I plan on going every Mon, Wedn, and Fri. He said I needed to find something I like to do, and right now, running is it.

Confession: I am starting to realize some eating disorder habits of mine and I am trying to nip that in the bud fast.

Cheer: I bought a new cookbook today and I plan on doing a new recipe every day this week!! Better than eating out!!

Broken Foot

No, I'm not the one with a broke foot. My four year-old is the one with a fractured bone and needs a cast. He was running in Home Depot, like I told him not to do, and he rounded the corner too fast and slipped. He landed on his foot. At first he looked fine. He was limping a little bit, but it just looked like a sprain or he just twisted it. Well, then yesterday when I went to go pick him up after work, it was swollen and purple. I took him to an emergency clinic because all of the doctor's offices were closed. And after a few x-rays....we found out he has a fractured bone and needs a cast. =(

Things with me are okay. I'm still excited about running. My food is crazy because my stomach is still not over this flu thing. I just look at food and it makes me want to hurl. Not cool.

Well, I'll let you know what happens at the doctor!!

Confession: I had chicken nuggets from McD's last night because I needed something to eat and they were bland enough to eat.

Cheer: I have really been paying attention to my body and what it needs. I think I am more intune with my triggers.